Confession time.

So besides how awesome this picture is, this post is largely about disappointment and fog. Like the kind of brainfog that makes you not think so clearly. But more about this picture. Me and Bev were meeting a group of friends at a local bar/restaurant for our friend Donovan's birthday. We wore these masks and snuck up behind the birthday boy, snapped a mask on him, and started shaking our butts. That's right. We're sassy masked birthday dancers.

So yeah. For the past several weeks (I'd say it probably started in early April) I've been feeling rather "bleh" about blogging. Just kind of in a funk without clear direction. I think I mostly was just losing self-confidence from not being able to secure a job but it definitely was having the biggest affect on my blog. Its been really hard to find motivation and inspiration and discipline to come up with cool stuff to write about and stay on schedule. Plus not having any income was really just plain ol' hurting my feelings.

Last weekend I worked what seemed like 48 hours straight on an out-of-town wedding with some florist friends. I came back home that Sunday and slept all day. I trained at my new job on Monday and slept the rest of that day. I did a horrible job of not staying sober Monday night then slept most of the next day. Same thing yesterday and today I trained and slept for most of the day. I just can't get it together yall!

After much inner dialogue about whether I should continue blogging or not, I've decided to stick around*. I've had so many issues with staying on task and completing deadlines for other people (guest posts, sponsor buttons, etc) and I felt like I was just causing more problems for people by continuing to do this. But I've decided to keep blogging and I'm making tomorrow my day to get reorganized and finish up projects for people. Who knows, maybe I'll take some outfit or DIY pictures.

Egh. I really hate having things that aren't positive or encouraging on here, but I felt like it was really important to get my inner most feelings out in the open so I could move on past them. Things will be really exciting around here next week, promise!

*Fun fact: my favorite grammatical rule to break is ending a sentence with a preposition. I know, I know. I'm a crazy grammatical rebel!

Oh, and other things going on in my life:
Me and Matthew are thinking about joining a commune in San Francisco.
Me and Maddy have been snuggling this whole week. Nonstop.
I ate TWO Totino's pizzas for dinner. Wow.
We had our good friend Justin stay with us Sunday and Monday night and now our other good friend Colby is staying the night. I love friend time.
Me and my new friend Scott had a stretch-off last night. It got crazy. There were backbends involved.
I've been eating fried eggs like crazy. So good!
This guy.

He's got lots of funny videos on his youtube channel. Watch as many with Skippy as you can!

Happy weekend. Love you guys.